Welcome to my corner of Project Positive Change.
You may have read about me in a few other places on the site – my profile or on the About me page. But here, here is where you will find the nitty-gritty. A few years ago, I began to realize the life I was living looked great on the outside but was a different story behind closed doors. I was an ambitious professional – kicking ass in the Courtroom, making more money than I had ever dreamed, and serving clients who loved me. I traveled all over the world and experienced the life I had I had daydreamed about when I was a kid. The bill of goods I had been sold was that a great career and making more than six figures was the formula for success. I guess it depends on how you define success.
My staff knew the truth. I would diligently work through the week – listening to literally hundreds of clients who came through my door in my divorce practice. They were in pain and I was right there with them. I felt it in my gut, heart and soul, their anger, despair, feelings of hopelessness, even horror.. the things I have seen are heartbreaking. I didn’t realize living in this space was taking such a toll on me.
I had an undercurrent of unhappiness running in the background of my life.When I was finished with my day or at the end of the week, I was depleted. When I wasn’t flying around the world trying to get as far away from all the bitterness and hostility that I could get – I was at home basically hiding. It was as I went home and insulated myself with my misery (along with my dogs and my massive Pot bellied pig, Wang).
My assistant would say, “YOU HAVE TO GET OUT of the HOUSE!“.
I was overweight .. binge eating and drinking. I was depressed. I really didn’t know how to feel better. I had been to counseling off and on for years previous (more on this later!) But by this time, I thought I had it all together. In actual fact, I was just hardened and cynical. I had experienced enough with my own feelings of heartache to have washed my hands of it all.
I started looking for ways to feel better. On one of my trips, I began listening to Abraham Hicks, Wayne Dyer, and Mike Dooley. I had heard about the Silva Method of meditation. I started listening to Mike Dooley’s, Playing the Matrix during my lunch hour. On a whim, I went to his Train the Trainer conference and quite simply my life was changed. Mike’s trademark is, “Thoughts become Things” .. and I learned how my thoughts of hate, hostility, animosity, and sadness were exactly what I had become!
I began to teach workshops to help other people see that their lives could be different too. I started talking to my clients about looking at the positive aspect of their lives. This path to positive change, I didn’t say it was smooth. Changing your view of the world and the habits you have taken on can be painful in itself. Opening up my heart again, feeling again, I began to cry at almost everything. I started writing every day. It began in a Facebook group, “We Share Infinite Possibilities” (join us there if you want to find other like minded people).
The writing I did there and the journey I have taken is what I will write about here.
I’m still a lawyer and my writing will often be about what I see in my office. My old nemesis of my weight is a continuing theme for me. Relationships, travel, and my animals (I’ve got five!) along with the law of attraction and energy are all what you will find here at the Path to Positive Change. I will be sharing my own dreams, hopes, and successes, and want to encourage you to create your own magic and miracles!
I hope as you read along and will find pieces of my own journey that resonate with you and your own path.
Love, Light, and Positive Change!